*.* Suicidal tendencies?God intervened!! *.*
Hey man we dun have to feel suicidal or anything.let me tell u my personal story.I give u permission to laugh at this:
IN the year 2004 i was feeling complacent.I didnt much study and took my O's at the end of the year.Feeling a false sense of confidence...i just studied the topics i was strong at and thinking that i could pass and get into polytechnic.I was in a state of illusion and perhaps i really thought that even if i failed i could get in Nanyang academy of Fine arts(NAFA).Once i attended their open house and these student guide took me on a tour and said that some who flunk O levels had no where to go and chose this place.But as long as u have passion for the arts,it doesnt matter,as long as u passed ur english.Simple requirement?yes. so i tot that this would be my ideal plan should i fail!!!
Unexpectedly my hopes were dashed.I got back my results with an L1R4 of 26.U may think i had passed,but i Got E8 for math to be frank.My parents tole me to re-take ( i was reluctant to.). They said that NAFA had expensive school fees and didnt want to spend so much on me there.Well i just had to re take my O's,regardless.
I stepped into City Harvest Education Centre (CHEC) for my course in retaking the paper.As usual my grades and results plunged in class tests. Feeling increasingly despondent,my suicidal tendencies increased until finally one day i cried for like 1 whole hour.Can u imagine that?I had poured everything out to my sister and she was shocked.She commented that:"you've got suicidal tendencies?wah,that's scary, u know!!Dont't u think its scary too??" I thought so.But ever since letting it out into the light, i felt better. It was then God seemed to knock me on the head and say:
"yan chen,why are u so silly?didnt my word said that trials are to test ur faith
so it can come out as pure as gold?And that u will have the grace of my son
Jesus Christ to perfect what is lacking in u??"
Also from the following days reading the word i found out the his ways are higher than my ways,his thoughts higher than mine,and that he can do exceedingly abundantly more than i can ask or think of,according to the power that works in me.
Today ,because of that, i have learnt to make failure a part of life to bring out the patience and perserverance in me (in the blog quote above).Thank you,Lord!!!!U're a guide in every area of my life!!!!!and he is ur Boss,CEO,Knowledge and research partner,whatever occupation u are,he can be ur Chairman!!!
I shone with Jesus @ | 6:17 AM
*.* Hilarious days *.*
Throughout my days as a child of God,i came across some funny memories when i was recalling the past about my "early days" on my walk with the father
psalms 143:5 I remember the days of old. I ponder all your great works. I think about what you have done.(nlt) So exactlty i was doing all that,how HE worked through my life and how i responded.the funny part is my new passionate zeal about going all out to preach for him.I remember me telling my cell group leader in an e-mail about pop "idols" and how teenage girls can fall for these guys who hardly knew them...haha legalistic or what???
it is because of this particular verse that says :
And no wonder, for even Satan masquerades as an angel of light. (WEB) 2 corin 11:14 And to think i had the guts and thick skin to "preach" such crazy and awkard message to my leader!!Laughable.I elaborated that some boybands and solo male singers use their charms to attract a girl fan,then get intimate with her and rape her OR make use of their own good looks to cause millions of love-stricken innocent girsl to go wild and out- of- control !!!!
And that is what i explained the 2 corin 11:14 verse!!!because satan is actually a handsome creation of God,only to become evil looking,as many said,like a serpent or dark lord after he fell.
i title my message "i felt God telling me to preach" and started off in my letter "bro,recently i felt God telling me to preach ..."( elaborated above ).He replied :" what u talking about?that is wrong intepretation.it is alright to have someone to admire,and it is not dangerous,but anyway,good try,but God is certaonly not telling u to preach now!!"(imagine the embarrasment i beared with the following week when i wa going to service!!!hahaha!) but luckily he didnt talk to me about it.Otherwise.....
I shone with Jesus @ | 10:19 PM
*.* Location *.*
www.revivalallaspects.blogspot.comwww.revivalfire.blogdrive.comThese are the two other places u can locate,the first being communications, relational skills and spiritual warfare..all the ingredients needed for revival in other pple's and ur own life!!
the Second being scientific articles and info on christianity..all u need to know!!!Hope that with these two other sites u can be able to learn more and be on Fire for Jesus!!!
Eph 3;17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; to the end that you, being rooted and grounded in love.(WEB)
I shone with Jesus @ | 8:36 PM
