Hey good day its me here again..have not really blogged for a long time...Well i got some revelations recently and would like to share with anyone who reads this article!

first of all on cell group meetings and the taking in of the word...well i dunno what i should say but i really do love cell group but if i were a leader i wouldn't hold cell meetings on a consistent basis..i mean like once every week..if i were one i would hold a cell meeting fortnightly...well u know why? I am more concerned with growth and not just head knowledge.I discovered that after numerous sermons my life remains as per norm..only to successfully implement a few. Well after knowing so much i still have loads to learn!!!And i have to relearn and relearn.

I really cant help it but i kind of agree with the contents in "purpose driven life" written by rick warren...And i really really agree with what he says..to the extent that i somehow gone out of the mentality of most churchgoers.Which is me against popular church mentality dealing wiht worship and bible studies.Sometimes i do feel irritated to have to worship God in music and guitars alone..and not in other ways.(Cos we are built in different ways,and different interests!!)
I can share with u some of the contents written by rick warren.(actually u can see this particular mentality of mine in the earlier article :"music or worship?" )

#1 bible studies (from purpose driven life) "....actually u can be so busy going to bible studies that u have no time to implement what u learn.the enemy doesnt mind u going to bible studies as long as u did not put into practise what u have learnt."

From here i really do agree with it.I remember having saturdays with like 3 bible studies in a row!!!first of all in cell group,next service,and lastly bible classes after service.To grow strong,we must take things slowly,by putting in our focus in one particular area at any one time.1 weeks time isnt enough for me to implement all i have learnt!by the time i have implemented say 45%..the next week comes up and the same 45% process of implementation recycles.I can never implement succesfully each lesson taught.and that has taken its toll.let m tell u why.

remember my previous articles on how i got depressed when i failed my O levels?that battle in my mind went on for 6 months with demons attacking my though life day and night.I almost wanted to attempt suicide because i thought life was not worth living being a useless teenager.Question: what happened to all the sermons that i learn then?have i forgotten that i need to live by faith not by sight?no.But that's because i did not let that verse grow strong in me.How about taking it as a perspective that its a trial to stregthten me?that too wasnt on my mind.And i didnt even implement.I prayed for comfort but it seems useless.And its all because i did not implement what i learn,meditate on it,and grow strong in the word.

sooner i began to read every verse with smith wigglesworth's popular advice:"only believe!!"
and when i read romans 12:2 " do not be conformed to the standards of this world...renewing of mind."and phillipians 4:8"whatever that is honorable and of good report,think of these things."
i decided to start thinking the good things to boost my morale.But those depressing thoughts showed up there and then..and i almost broke down.But the enemy's strongholds were clearly breaking down..but he was trying to break in even more.That turmoil in me was successfully gone after 2 and a half weeks of intense meditation and confessing the word to myself.In those two weeks i didnt really implement what i learnt from church sermons.I only cared about focusing on winning this battle first.otherwise it can obstruct me in future partaking of spiritual food.Can u take in advice or bible verses during ur most depressing and angry moments?most of us cant,to be frank.We need to calm down first and let the peace of God dwell in us before we can proceed in our walk with him.

umm.. its a little long winded again...i will continue in another article.....haah