NOW let us all look things in the eye and think carefully about life and death.The distance between whether dying now or wait till the lord takes u home by his will is your thinking.whether u want to learn now and live through adversity or get stresed and suicidal is all fought in your mind and decided in your mind.You choose.

However,if u feel suicidal,God has given both me and you a beautiful psalm(which i call the book of comfort.)

Psalm 116
Thanksgiving for Deliverance from Death

1 I love the LORD, because He has heard My voice and my
supplications.
2Because He has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I will call upon Him as long as I live.

3The pains of death surrounded me,
And the pangs of Sheol laid hold of me;
I found trouble and sorrow.

4Then I called upon the name of the LORD:
"O LORD, I implore You, deliver my soul!"
5Gracious is the LORD, and righteous;
Yes, our God is merciful.

6The LORD preserves the simple;
I was brought low, and He saved me.
7Return to your rest, O my soul,
For the LORD has dealt bountifully with you.

8For You have delivered my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
And my feet from
falling.
9I will walk before the LORD In
the land of the living.
10I believed, therefore I spoke,
"I am greatly afflicted."
11I said in my haste, "All men are
liars."
12What shall I render to the LORD For
all His benefits toward me?
13I will take up the cup of salvation,
And call upon the name of the LORD.
14I will pay my vows to the LORD Now
in the presence of all His people.
15Precious in the sight of the LORD Is
the death of His saints.
16O LORD, truly I am Your servant; I
am Your servant, the son of Your maidservant;
You have loosed my bonds.

17I will offer to You the sacrifice of thanksgiving,
And will call upon the name of the
LORD.
18I will pay my vows to the LORD Now
in the presence of all His people,
19In the courts of the LORD's house,
In the midst of you, O Jerusalem. Praise
the LORD!

Notice verse 4 to 6!!! Its calling out to Him and he will respond!!! be blessed!!!!
I have a testimony.One day i was feeling all depressed again.I didnt particularly pray..i just said a short one like "lord could u help me?" and i felt the peace of God that surpasses all understanding!!(phil 4:7). Believe it.

Also one day i went to a close brother's home,and we watched a short segment on Benny hinn's video on faith.I learnt to take things seriously after that.look at the following below:

heb 11: 1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for,
the evidence of
things not seen. 2For by it the elders obtained a
good testimony.

• Substance,like Benny Hinn says,is a knowing.U don't know when or
  how your miracle is happening,but u just know it.Its heart faith and
  not mentally repeating "i believe,i believe,i believe"faith.
• Evidence is the hope and prayer.Its more like actions.U hope for something,u
  pray for it.Coupled with faith i gets even better.That's evidence!!!!
• Evidence is also = substance + expectation.
• By all these,God blesses you,and u will have something to thank him for,a testimony,a good report.Try it!!!!!!